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Old Jul 14, 2019, 09:23 AM
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Originally Posted by Misterpain View Post
My adoptive Mom was fantastic ,she worked hard to help me repair the damage caused by birth family ,unfortunately she never saw the full metamorphosis in this world ,because I always carried a little hurt ,that I wouldn't let go of. That part of me got resolved in 2013/2014 .
It took me until I was 45 to realize the hurt I clung to ,was giving people that were dead the ability to do what they would love to see ,me sabotaging myself with the hurt ,as if it was part off there plan from the start ?.

If things don't feel like they are supposed to ,how are they supposed to be,and how do you know ?

Nothing is promised to be fair, and nothing worth having comes easily,would we really appreciate what we have if we didn't have to work to get it .

Weather it's making peace with our past or accepting today ,the only balance we have is what we make .it ain't easy or cheap,celebrate the little victories instead of mourning losses.

I agree.
I have sadness for both my mother's. That's what separates me from my adoptive mother. I never stopped loving and hoping for love from her. I think she missed out too by not being able to feel her hurt. Her pain. Her traumas.

Before therapy I was angry. Couldn't verbalise my hurt. And because my abuse was emotional, I couldn't recognise it.

Therapy has given me narration. And peace with all my experiences.

Still more to go. But its all good now.
Thanks for this!
Omers