Thanks and I'm not quite sure why. I was planning on downing a bunch of pills and killing myself at work but sorta wimped out at 4 and just sat in the bathroom for a bit staring at the blade. I just slid it down my arm, not really thinking since I didn't think it was that sharp but apparently I just wasn't feeling any of the pain.

Actually the main reason was that I pretty much felt no pain. Even though I was cutting deep enough to draw blood it felt like nothing (hurt more today so idk). I was feeling like **** due to typical paranoia and the fear that everyone truly hates me and that I'm just a drain on everyone's existence. I've also always thought that maybe if I was the typical mentally ill person that self harmed then maybe people might take me seriously? And watching the blood seep out was pretty distracting.