I just started therapy last Thursday. I am just seeing a psychologist so far, no meds yet. I've only been to one visit.

Long story short....two years ago when I first tried anti-depressants, I *think* they may have turned me Bipolar. We're not sure. And the doc who prescribed them (2 years ago) was somewhat incompetent, didn't listen when I told her about what was clearly a manic episode (but I had no idea then), and she ended up making me go off meds cold-turkey...long story there too. So...I'm a little scared of getting on meds again until I know what's really going on.

I am bored at work. But yes, part of it is fear that I'm going to screw it up. I'm new at this - I've been in accounting for 5 years, but this is my first "real" tax season. I don't know a lot of stuff yet. And I'm scared to go ask questions because I don't want to look stupid. I feel like I should know how to do something, but then I don't....but instead of trying to figure it out, I waste time online and just do nothing.