Hi Dysphoria,

Again, welcome to PC.

I am sorry you are feeling so down.

I. too, find it tough to not lament the past. I do realize that the most important part of our lives, the part we can do something about, is today, each and every day.

Do you see a doctor and/or a therapist?
Do you take meds? If so, might you need a med adjustment?

You'd mentioned living alone. Do you have friends, neighbors, any close family?
Do you attend a church, a social group/center or other supportive group involvement?

Yes, it sounds like you are very depressed and I am concerned about you.

What helps when you are feeling so alone and so hopeless?

Unfortunately, we can only give a certain amount and type of support here. We'll do our best to support you.

Should you:
- feel far too depressed,
- if you cannot care for yourself,
- and/or you are thinking of harming yourself or others, please do go to your local emergency room.

I'm glad you are here and have joined in with us, telling us more about yourself.
I hope to see you around PC.