I completely agree with you and that is why I feel it is hopeless. What she writes to me seems empty and meaningless, like there is no feeling behind it. She hasn't asked for my forgiveness or other ways to make amends. I just get this icy, cold feeling when I read what she writes.

Thanks bizi. It has been a hard time. I have the flu, my Dad died, I lost my best friend and had my sister triangulate using my son against me to make me look bad in his eyes.

We were friends for more than 5 years and now I reallze that the whole thing was built on an illusion that she actually cared for my feelings. It is a process to accept and mourn the loss.