I would give up everything, I mean EVERYTHING, all my personal growth, my strengths, my self care, everything I have learnt, just to stay in your house with you, be part of your life 24/7, just be near you all the time. I know that would never ever happen, maybe that's why I'm fantastising and letting myself allow it. I also feel so ashamed and stupid that I honestly feel I could give up all that, literally wreck my life, just for that chance. But I also think that you would probably get that. I think you would understand that feeling. I can't tell you - not yet. But I hope that you would hear that longing and care about it. Maybe it will be possible to tell you this for real sometime and we can talk about it.