Thanks. I adore my T usually, but it's like he's tried so hard with me, he needs me to recognize his effort by being trustful. But I am a csa struggler, and I get quietly triggered by things he says or by what he doest do. There's no room to talk about this. He madethemetaphor about putting my bad memories and images in an album so they become 2 dimensional, and taking care of the child I once was by saying this isnt for you, you're not old enough- taking the book away and closing it. It was a powerful metaphor, tender in its way, but it also clearly showed his belief that patients must help themselves. He played no role in that curative scenario. I had conflicting reactions- like held and abandoned at once. We couldn't talk about it though, the part where he has no role, bc I don't want his metaphor to fail and I am tired of wanting more than he gives in 44 minutes and 3seconds.