I'm super tired and I feel kind of crappy. My stomach hurts and my eyes feel dark and I'm not hearing God much today. I'm feeling lame and losery. I feel like nothing matters and everything matters That nothing can calm me and yet nothing can excite me. I want to lay on my bed under my weighted blanket and zone out into oblivion. I don't want to feel this way when I wake up tomorrow. I feel like what's the point. My friend's dog was acting weird and I told my friend maybe she had an angel in her room and that's why the dog didn't want to go in there. I don't think she believed me but I believe things like that. I think dogs and cats can sense it. I'm too dull. I'm too life sucked out of me. It's like the AP has taken over my brain and instead left me a shell of a person. What a messed up day today is. I feel really ******