I don't feel well. My stomach hurts and my eyes feel dark. I feel lame and losery. God isn't talking to me much today. I feel alone and crappy. I feel like the life has been sucked out of me. I think that is the AP. It leaves me being a shell of a person but if I lower the dose then my depression which is already like a caged tiger comes roaring alive and tries to kill me. I want to lay under the weighted blanket and chill on my bed where it is soft and away from the world and just zone out but I don't want to wake up tomorrow feeling this ****** My head feels like cotton. I feel like nothing matters and I feel like everything matters.