I am getting through the day somehow. I had started a Mirapex increase last night. I have found it starts helping, to some degree. almost immediately. It does have some GI side-effects. Mostly nausea and, in some cases, vomiting. When people first start taking it, it is important to slowly increase in small increments until one knows how one will respond. If people can tolerate the GI effects, then it can be very helpful with depression. I have increased it quite a bit, so I have some GI side-effects, which will quiet down soon.

July is also a month full of sad anniversaries. My wedding anniversary on July 4th...and we all know that story. I've lost 2 brothers, each in July. I've lost 4 family members in a plane crash... all in July.

My depression and my PTSD both go bonkers in July. In addition to July anniversaries, my former pdoc had theorized that I was so stressed at home (when not in school) that my cortisol levels were much higher during the months I was on school vacation. One's body can learn that pattern and can continue to repeat it.

Summers are notoriously very hard for me.

Anyway, spent a decent day with my mom, just doing paperwork, etc., while sitting around the table together, making calls and doing paperwork. She likes to learn a bit more about computers, so I help her with that. I don't know much; yet, I know enough to help her out.

I did change my home security company today. It was a great deal through AARP and ADT. Much more comprehensive and less money per month than our current home security company. I am adding some additional sensors. Installment in a week.

I have already changed all of the locks. I have also changed the gateway, the modem, the network, etc., in hopes of avoiding any further remote clearing of computers (pictures, etc.). The internet provider came and helped me to change up things and also made the network invisible (nobody can see it in order to break into it.). Take that! I wish it were that entertaining; it's not. and !!!

So we (mom and I) are feeling more and more secure. I wish the night terrors would stop. They are very intrusive in nature. I am often trying to get rid of someone trying to remotely take all of my favorite videos and pictures. One night, I was trying to rescue pictures sent to me by Bird Dancer, by Jennifer 1967 and by ~Christina!!! Lol!

Those are the light-hearted dreams. They get very dark otherwise and I won't get into it here.

I hope everyone had a good Monday, also known as Prime Day, as Bluebicycle has informed us.

Did you buy anything today due to the big sales?

Love to ALL!