Ever since I left my abuser, I have been unable to form any type of close relationship. I dont seem to be too shy, I meet people and talk regularly at work.. but I have issues in forming friendships.

I wouldn't even say its external anxiety or any nervousness I can physically feel. Its just a complete reluctance when the oppurtunity comes up.

I know that only I can change this ... but how, when my mind constantly persuades me that being completely alone is better.

I am lonely. I feel bad about this issue all the time.