Into my fourth day of IP. It only seems to be making me feel more trapped but as I have strong SI my pdoc won't let me discharge. The anxiety and agitation are bad. Until last night I had hardly been sleeping but I was given an anti-histamine last night and it knocked me out. So much so that I have been sleeping a lot of the day too. I am SOOOOO bored. I cannot concentrate so any groups, reading, TV etc is almost impossible to engage in. I am stuck. Yesterday I had a go at my pdoc as he hadn't shown up the last three times he said he would. This was only making me more paranoid and feeling unsafe. I am scared. I am trying to calm down so I can go home safely. I have no friends to visit me so I have only seen my Mum, and Dad once. As they both trigger me it is both great to have them visit but also very stressful. I don't know what to do. I hate the feeling in my chest, the feeling of fear, agitation and panic. I want my peace back.