I try not to make assumptions like that, I have read every article on Conduct Disorder and ASPD that I could find. I've made my mom read them too, but it made things worse because she inclined that I was just like that. I find it strangely amusing. I swear, she's the kind of person who runs around like a headless chicken, she hasn't been a good example so far.

But I guess I know why she thinks that, my father's side of the family is well known for violence and aggression. I'm the only child my mom has had with my father. My father (supposedly) physically abused my half siblings and emotionally abused her. And my dad is a survivor of both forms of abuse as well. I think she's afraid that I may have inherited something. I think she's holding it against me, is she afraid of me?

And I'm not seeing him anymore, I never liked him. He was my stepfather's choice, because he had helped him with his depression so well. They both thought medication would do the trick. (I'm just going to name my stepfather a fake name for convenience, let's call him Luca) Luca thought and still thinks that I'm dealing with mental illness. Although I believe I need pretty extreme therapy and life counseling. His problems are on the higher end, but mine are even more so. He's refusing to understand how much I need to work on.

Although it dose feel better to finally be talking about it. I just don't really like it when they act like I might attack them in a moment's notice. Its actually really provoking.

And if I can find a psychologist or something that I like. I'm not worried about not being eighteen. I can refuse Luca entry and let my mom know what information I want her to share. Now that I think about it, I sound really controlling, don't I?

But I appreciate that you have faith in me. It's actually really reassuring and motivating. Thank you.