Since you have this dilemma about not going to session often, I guess you could indeed try not going and see how you feel about it? Why not? Perhaps if you do that once (or a few times), recalling the emotional consequence in future instances will help shift this kind of ambivalence. I personally do think actions speak louder than words, meaning here that experiencing the result of what many might describe as "acting out" could potentially help more than just the pure thinking and talking. I personally would never just no-show, but cancel. Test what you don't get out of therapy if you don't go, instead of pondering the benefits you are not sure about. I am sure the T would be there waiting next time anyway.