Just that really. I'm in between therapists. Finished therapy prematurely in February after a bad rupture. Now waiting to start again but this time not privately so on a waiting list. Meanwhile I've managed to develop intense maternal transference issues towards my psychiatrist just like I did with my therapist. After every time I see her I have to binge and chain smoke cigarettes (I'm not even a smoker). And still I'm in turmoil for days. Feeling abandoned, sad, just totally alone and like there is no point in this life because I will never be able to receive that perfect care.


How do you all self soothe after therapy? After a particularly difficult session? I need to develop healthier ways to cope than what I currently do.