Thank you, I think you sound like a very well_meaning and loving parent. I imagine it can be very difficult. I think my mom may be mentally ill too, but good luck trying to get her to help herself.

And I do understand that my mom (let's call her Madison) isn't really sure what to do sense all of her kids suffer from trauma or mental illness. It's like she's a sheep raising wolves.

But she's very religious and notoriously stubborn. I'm not religious myself but I don't mind if people are. We all have our own beliefs. It only bothers me when your trying to force it on me and tell me only about the Great Day but ignore the complicated emotional needs of your last unmarried daughter. She only ever talks about how she made it through her trauma and how it will all one day come to an end. But I have different needs then her. I understand she IS trying. But its really tough being the only one in your family who's anything like yourself. I feel like a wolf among sheep or a fox among chickens. Their first instinct is peace while mine is violence.

But thank you, it means so much to finally get the support that I need and finally find people who understand. It's the best thing that's happened in a long time.