So if anyone managed to make it through all of that, here are some things that helped me recover (in no particular order):

- The book "The Body Keeps the Score"
- Website therapyconsumerguide,com (by user Ididitmyway on this forum... thank you!!)
- Therapy-Induced Trauma: What It Is and How It Can Happen
- Emotional Abuse in Psychotherapy | TELL: Therapy Exploitation Link Line
- First, Do No Harm: Abusive Psychotherapists | Psychopaths and Love
- When Therapists Do Harm | The Ferentz Institute
- EMDR therapy
- Neurofeedback
- Love and support from people who genuinely care about me and love and support me