I keep hearing we are here for a reason, but I feel like I’m here to suffer. I tried to stay positive stay away from bad friends, but everything I do is a **** up . It feels like the whole world is against me . I wish I could switch places with my brother and dead when I was a kid instead of him . Everything is about money! No wonder why so many people commit suicide . There’s really no help unless you pay for it.
Anyways I feel like what’s the point in being here when you bring other people down or hurt other people by being around? I would’ve killed my self already if it didn’t cost my family to bury me . Why did I survive so many bad wrecks, been shot, stabbed, shocked , jumped so many times, but still alive? It’s not like I saved anybody from anything, but lead them down the wrong path . So wouldn’t I being doing everyone a favor by killing myself when I could pay for my own funeral?