Thanks everyone. I've been looking into getting a weighted blanket but they're so expensive. I wish I would find my DH a bit more emotionally safe so that I could seek that comforting from him. No way I would even try to talk to him about this. I wish there was someone big and cuddly to scoop me up and stroke my hair when I'm struggling. If there was though maybe I wouldn't struggle so much. Or a cat or a dog would be nice too. But dh hates cats and dogs. Sigh. What has my life become.