Thanks for all of your responses. They really helped me think about and process how I feel about this right now. I just sent my T an email canceling for today. I just want to see how it feels, I guess. I know I talk about it all the time, but I rarely cancel. Part of me would like for him to say something like, “I know this is tough for you, but come in anyway and let’s talk.” But I know he won’t because T’s aren’t supposed to do that kind of thing. It’s funny but this does sort of feel like a re-enactment of sorts with me doing things on my own, no support. I have another appointment with him tomorrow and I haven’t decided what to do about that one yet.