I talked to my new therapist today, she called me to schedule our first sesssion a couple of months from now. I also saw her very briefly for like two or three minutes this spring as a kind of introduction just to meet her.

My first reaction to her was that I don´t like her. When she called today I heard from her accent she´s from middle/upper class and I think that added to my dislike. I usually try to sound grateful and interested when someone like a new counsellor or a doctor calls but with this new T I just responded shortly.

Perhaps this happened because of all my negative experiences with therapists. It felt she tried to say something nice without meaning it. I started to cry afterwards and now I don´t feel like doing anything for the rest of the day.

I will never again greet or talk to a therapist in a kind or interested way to try to make them show me they care. I´ll act as distant and non-bothered as they do.