Thanks perna... for the link. I skimmed it and I could relate to a lot of what it was saying. For example, I try to go for men who are not available to me, but now it all makes sense, the narcissisistic supply is greater. For example I go after married men, or in any instance my therapist who actually recipricated, but yeah i guess it's all about obtaining narcissistic supply for me. I need it all the time its a flippin' drug for me, just never knew what to call it. At the begiining I made a game out of all my sexual partners, I would tally them up by the end of the week say it was 10, then I would go see if I could beat my record, not I dont even wanna see how many Ive slept with, anyway I guess in a way that was using them as objects. Thanks for the replies but yeaaah.