Wander I am so glad to hear you are feeling better. I hope things continue this way for you. Do you have any idea why you are suddenly feeling better? Was it a successful medication change perhaps? It makes sense that your Pdoc is being cautious (we all want you safe), but I can totally understand why you want to get out of a place that is triggering. I have really been feeling for you and your situation. I think the meditation sounds like a great idea. I have tried meditation at a local center recently, but haven't gone back, just been rather busy with other things. A retreat is something I would be interested in looking into. Please continue to keep us posted with how you are doing!