I didn’t see T Monday because he is doing yet another CEU thing. So far I have done pretty well with this skipped session but it is starting to get to me. This time it is because I am REALLY wanting to process something with him and think I will be able to ask to do that in session. I also know he always comes back from these training things on a kind of high and usually is at his best. I think this is the first time I have really wanted to bring something to therapy to work on. I always kinda showed up saying I have PTSD and then let the therapist guide everything from there. I want to sit in the corner but he did share that the thought of me sitting curled up in the corner upset him.