I’m so sorry you went through that kiwi. I had a similar experience and posted the link about my healing journey below:

Therapy Trauma, Healing and Starting Over

It’s especially alienating to have such an emotionally destructive experience in therapy because there’s not much public awareness around therapy risk. It’s usually the black/white extreme cases of abuse that make the headlines. I too believe my ex-therapist was warm and genuinely caring - just with issues too. I was with my therapist for 8 years and viewed her as a pseudo-mother... and now, couldn’t book an appointment with her again even if I wanted to. It’s beyond devastating to have a relationship like that sour and the damage to my core was (and is)quite extreme. The self-healing I’ve been able to accomplish is remarkable but there are still some deep broken pieces I’m not sure I’ll ever be able to fix.

Thank you again for posting your story, and you are not alone!