I have no idea how to start a new thread. My brain is not wanting to focus. I haven't been on here in a while. I was diagnosed bp1 in 2006. But my main symptoms is depression which since 2015 I've been unmedicated except for lamictal which I want to stop taking but just haven't. I've been on every medication made it seems and they all have very negative side effects so I decided to just quit. I would rather face the frequent depression as bad as it is than the negative symptoms of medication. Anyway why I came here tonight is I'm hyped up, irritated, quick tempered with my family, saying things I shouldn't, no patience with my 83 year old mother who is my best friend. I even made her cry the other day, which I have never done . I never have been comfortable saying or believing that I am bp. Maybe I just don't get it, or in denial. I have MI in my family.. what is this? Is feeling like you've had way too much caffeine, irritability and all the other things I listed bp? I hate when I get like this. Depression just hurts me, but this hurts my loved ones
Can't sleep. Anyone have help?