First take a deep breath. Then remember you are the same person you were before the diagnosis and after. Now you say that your last two pdocs didn’t diagnosis this but they also didn’t help you much. Maybe just tell yourself to forget the name and just focus on the symptoms. Tell yourself you will try this for a month and then reevaluate how you feel. You could even come up with a fun name for the diagnosis like pickle or something so that it doesn’t bring you down as much. Sometimes words do matter so if you can spin it to your advantage does it hurt to try? I know not the same thing but for me I was reluctant to try ketamine because I wasn’t someone who needed it is what I kept telling myself. So I delayed but in the end I tried it and stuck with it and it is the best thing that I have done for myself.

Remember you are doing this all for yourself no one else. You are in the drivers seat and make treatment decision. Best of luck.