It's been 55 days. I'm close to cutting. I don't think I can hold out much longer. Its dominating my thoughts. I've been going through my bag of tricks...deep breathing, journalling, coming to PC, drawing, etc. I just think it's not working right now. It's hard to keep my head focused on the goal when I feel like how I feel. Its going to win, sooner or later, if not today another day. I'm going to try to hold out. Failure looms large.