Have you talked to T about this? Maybe you can have days where you discuss less intense topics especially if there is a bacation or big event coming up that you dont want to be overly emotional for

I have periods where I feel like I can't do the whole therapy thing anymore because of feeling overwhelmed or being in a good place and not wanting to rock the boat. When I expressed these feeling they have offered to cancel my appointment or tuoffered that we could have a lighter session with breathing or grounding techniques. They left it up to me. I always end up going and while it may not be as productive in that I felt like I made some big accomplishment, there was usially some more information they received from it and it also helped me to trust more. The last few appoinments have been very intense with T really digging. I has been really painful. This week I told her we need to back off a bit as we have been pushing too much. So we did that. we didn't discuss any of my trauma because she let me lead our conversation.