Hi Continuously blue,

Thank you for sharing your experience. Know that no matter how alone you feel in your predicament: you are most definitely not alone!

Listen to your gut.

Listen to your intuition.

Whatever [barriers] are keeping you from making the decision that you very clearly have spelled out: list those barriers. Perhaps we can help you in making a wise decision.

It is normal to sift through several therapists in order to find one that fits best. It is not always a matter of good therapist or bad, but rather chemistry. Think of it like a sport: while on paper, the most experienced, most talented players may seem like the proper fit - in real life - it is far more complex. What makes magic happen is when the proper fit is established. That is FAR more important. Sometimes that requires seeing many therapists to find out who is best for us. There is no shame in saying goodbye to a therapist if things are not working out, and continuing to engage in ineffective therapy will only hurt you in the long-run.

Thanks,
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