Hope, who you were the same person the day before he gave you the diagnosis as the person you are the day after.

BPD is a difficult diagnosis that carries such a stigma. Through talking with psychiatists at work and clients, I have such empathy for those in the position. Usually, it is people who suffered from pretty extreme trauma as a child and didnt have their needs met. Sadly they had to find ways to get their needs met and often that was through acting out. In my mind that doesn't make them a bad or terrible person but rather somebody who fought for survival. I know some professionals in the field treat BPD sufferers differently and like bad clients and avoid them. IME though there are also some great providers. It sounds like your T cares and wants to work through this with you. Please be patient with yourself you are worth it. Please don't push him away let him help you.