Thank you both so much. That means more to me then I could ever possibly say. And I have recently lost contact with a BFF and I have found things more difficult to handle. Although I hope to fix it soon. Even though today was good, I got a new mineral for my collection, I have said some very hurtful things to my brother and his wife and my mom and stepfather. I don't regret them. I even liked the shock on their faces. It made me feel powerful and important. Although I think I'm just scared and bitter. Angry with events of my life and the never ending crossfire.

And if I could have my stepfather charged with child abuse and get him to confess. I would do without giving it second thought. But I'm also extremely tired due to no sleep last night.

Even though my father and I have issues. He dose yell A LOT, hates being disrespected in any way, and demands immediate obedience. He's easy to trick. And what I'm looking for is the most convenient place to develop my plans. And I cant say I love him, he's a Vet and comes pretty handy. And I know he would never hurt me on purpose. He's by far the better option.

And he doesn't bother my hardly at all so I'll have plenty of time to finish my plans. And I need his expertise anyways. And my step mom is great emotional support.