Thanks for replying. I fall asleep fast usually but I wake up after maybe 2-3 hours later. I have general anxiety. It's constant. It's 3:15am I've been up since 12am. My son (23) came to my house very drunk tonight and said a couple of hurtful things to me and made me cry. He is my baby. Very sweet and good to his mom. So it made me cry and not want to go back to sleep. I'm still really irritable. I don't see a psychiatrist any more because I believe they need a psychiatrist more than I do. I've seen my therapist regularly for almost 13 years now. Really depressed now. My mom, brother and niece are here. I don't know how I'm going to hide this in the morning. I hate the mask we have to hide behind. But it's really not acceptable to tell people your depressed. I even lie about it occasionally to my therapist. I'll try and sleep now. I know it makes it worse when I don't sleep.