Thanks Bill3. I haven't lapsed (yet) but I feel closer to it. I'm still trying things in my bag of tricks, emailing my former T, playing with my kitties, sewing little tee shirt dresses for my dog etc. You're right though. I need to reframe lapsing so that I don't think of it as a failure and then dig myself deeper into a hole. I will work on that. Thanks for the encouragement! HUGS Kit