I've been thinking a lot about an incident with my former T. She was at her first office so I hadn't been going to her all that long, but long enough to tell her about some of my abuse history. She came and got me from the waiting room but then there was a male T in her office waiting to talk to her. She went in, but I stayed in the hall because I worried it was some sort of trap. She kept telling me to come in and I eventually did but I never told her that I was afraid it was a trap and that the male T would somehow harm me. Like she was delivering me to him to be hurt. I eventually came in, and he went out, and nothing bad happened. In fact, I ended up seeing him for a couple of sessions later on when she was out of country and he was just the nicest guy. I just feel bad that I thought that way. That I thought she would let someone hurt me.