I'm not doing well. I really need an earlier or extra session but been too scared to ask because if you'd said no it would be another thing to deal with and I'm too fragile to deal with that rejection right now.

I really wish I could sit and cry in your presence. It's something I've struggled with always with Ts. I could get tearful with past Ts or even a little more on rare occasions, but I wish I could let go. I wish I could be that vulnerable with you, but I'm too heady. I'm too much in control.