I just started therapy last week for other 'issues' (depression, maybe Bipolar, maybe Borderline...)

I know I shouldn't really be thinking divorce now but our relationship has been bad for a while. I know counseling will probably happen eventually. He just doesn't "get" it sometimes. He thinks everything is fine. Whenever I try to talk about things, he acts like he is completely oblivious to anything.

It's just that...sure, things might get better with him. But they always get worse again. Part of me is just DONE. I can't deal with the rejection anymore.

But then I realize....I wouldn't be any happier alone!! And my daughter loves her daddy SOOO much. Too much sometimes...she wants him instead of me. That just kills me when she falls and bumps her head and I go to console her...and she just screams even more saying "daddy daddy daddy". I can't bear to break those two apart, even just for the every-other-weekend kind of deal. She loves him too much. But I don't want to lose her. And I do want her to grow up with a good family, both parents, you know..what kids are "supposed" to have.

I don't know anymore..