each week my t gives me homework... and right now i have been really struggling with flashbacks and body memories... they are the hardest i have ever had... because it's not the same as a cognitive memory... where i can say this happened then this... anyway... i had a scent pull some of it together... and i am not liking what i am remembering... or i guess what it is i am putting together... i guess i have always remembered.... anyway every time i start to look the urges to si become overwhelming... so my t tells me not to let myself get to that place... well if i have to look at this stuff and process it... but can't do it without cutting... then how am i ever going to get through it... is it hopeless?... i know that i have been in this place before and got through... but right now it isn't helping....lyn