I am trying to get through the day today after another very rough night.


I have"stumbled upon" more info about H's "activities." I had known enough already and have not been motivated to find more. I guess this is how my"discoveries" had begun, quite by accident, that is.


Am having lots of night terrors and some flashbacks.


I continue to lose time, even though I look fine and act okay. I have NEVER been in any "trouble" for anything I have done while dissociated. Most people never know I am/have been dissociated in their company, even those I know quite well. My current pdoc can sometimes tell; yet, most times, not.


If you get a note from me and it is "scrambled," don't be alarmed and please let me know. I have written quite a few that were never sent because I "came to" in time and saw the gibberish. It is so bizarre, the messages that is, they make me laugh. Maybe sad, but very true. I bust a gut!!!


I might be dissociated right now, I dunno.

I'll know more about this in a few hours or in a day or so.


A couple of notes like this have made it to a friend or two.

I do not always do this when experiencing dissociation. This is a new, different flavor of dissociation for me. I hope it stops soon!


I hope everyone is staying cool and is having a great Friday!!!


Love to All ~