Alright didn't think I was going to post again but now that she has a man our friendship seems to have went downhill. Maybe it's just me? We don't do those monthly hikes anymore, she's obsessed with this man. Tried showing her something this month at a hike we go to I thought she would like but told her forget about it, I asked for a rain check and cancelled next months big hike and told her I have personal issues and wont be messaging her for a few months, she told me my idea to show her something is not silly and ok for disapearing for a few months. I've been thinking of texting or calling her and telling her goodbye. I really don't understand why she has to keep me at a distant or so it feels like and I never get updates on what happens to her, find out from people that rarely talk to her and we really don't seem to be friends, more mere casual acquantances. My dad spends 3 days a week with his friends, my neighbours several times a month, everywhere I go friends with friends. What's wrong with this chick? says of her friends she hangs around with me one of the most. But now that she has a man it's always him and doesn't care about being better in the friendship department and did not like me asking if I could text her less and phone her more, just call whenever with no planned times, that's saved for her boyfriend when he's not around for 2 weeks per month for his other job. I can't improve anything because this so called "friendship" is not improveable as it takes 2 people to want that and she always keeps me at a distance. But she also said really soon she will have part of the money she owes me but she's been saying that for like 5 months. I am just going to fade away for a while and work on ME for a while, be more active doing biking, hiking, rollerblading, getting into really good shape and forget about females for a while. She's also sometimes starting to take a whole day to respond to texts now, which is weird compared to before. That's what you do when you're trying to distance yourself from people, that along with much shorter phone calls then before.

As for updates since my last post...talked to a girl on a dating app, asked for her number to text and tried 2 times to go on a date and both times her work got in the way and she was busy so I PEACED OUT! she got a little mad I ignored her last text, then told her I am moving on and good luck. Found another girl but she's all about being pampered by an older guy and wants a sugardaddy type of man to spoil her. Not my thing, so I peaced out! Just started rollerblading, might have a coworker join me on the weekend.

Also had another one on the dating app that I REALLY liked getting to know, but I guess I told her something she didn't like as she pried into my life and unmatched me, but she told me she was really proud of me for losing so much weight. Would not work out, I got no way of driving to her 30 miles away anyway. At 1 point I was talking to 6 girls, but now it's 0. Oh well.