I have so many princesses! I want to able to live without the disruption of pathological dissociation. To get to a point where I am able to have meaningful relationships with others. To no longer experience flashbacks in response to the triggers of trauma all round me in daily life. To be able to experience an authentic relationship with another human being. To get to a point where I can be true and accepting and protective of all parts of myself. Where I can be authentic and full and stand rooted in my own truth.
I hate therapy. I hate the process of it. I hate the vulnerability of it.
I hate that I have to do it in order to achieve the things I want to achieve.