Hi tecomsin!

Are you over the flu? Have been thinking of you.

It often takes me some time to sort out my feelings and to decide if I hope to again try to nurture the relationship.

I eventually work on forgiveness when I am ready. Forgiveness frees me. So when someone does not ask for forgiveness, I eventually work on forgiveness because I am responsible for my own healing,ultimately.

I suspect you will put this behind you if/when the associated pain fades.
And... I hope it does fade. This has caused you a lot of turmoil.

Often, when I experience a situation where I have ongoing feelings, I try to think about any prior situation in life, where I may have felt the same or similar.

This does not negate my feelings in the current situation. It helps me to possibly also identify another potentially powerful trigger.

My apologies. I am having great difficulty putting my thoughts on "paper" this morning.

I hope you will find a way to enJOY your day, despite this situation with your friend. I hope you can stay cool in this hot/humid weather.

Thinking of you!