My input is to say just go with what is. If you have stepped back from it and can't access it at the moment there will be a reason for it. What you want to do doesn't have to be done THIS session. If it doesn't feel like the right time - yet - go with that. Listen to your inner self. Trust your inner self. There will be some reason for it not to be okay - yet. Trust that when it is the right time to be able to do this, you will know and be able to do it. There isn't just one chance to do this. There are multiple chances. It could happen this week, next week, or next month. But trust that you will know when it is the best time for it to happen, because it will just happen.
It's oka to take the pressure off about you needing to be ready for it to happen this coming session. You do need to be ready. And if you are not ready yet then it will not be what it needs to be. Let it unfold. It will come.