So sorry to read that you are struggling with so much. The world can be a very cold place sometimes and it sounds like you have been weighed down by a lot from your family, too, and for a long time

You mentioned some things you think your parents might like from you. Taking them out of the picture for a moment, what would you like for yourself? What kind of job would you really like, what kinds of things would you like to be doing, what kinds of people do you like to interact with or do you prefer to work alone? If you can't think of any very much right now, because of the depression maybe, what kinds of things did you like to do when you were younger? What kinds of activities did you enjoy or that were fun for you?

You said that you were socially awkward -- I am, too, and have been for a long time. Very frustrating. But I did luck into a support group 5 years ago with people I can relate to and who accept me. That helped me feel better and I also seem to be doing some better with the world at large.

PsychCentral has also been a great resource for me. You are not alone in the kinds of things you are struggling with.