Amyjay...once again we are on the same page. I have told my T many times that I was always trying to save any injured widlife as a kid and I always use the metaphor to describe my trapped and helpless feelings as those of an injured animal in a cage. He said it is great that despite the way I was treated I was still able to show love and concern to the animals instead of being cruel to them as that is all I had been taught.

My T therefore knows I have it in me and while it comes natural when dealing with animals, it is foreign for me to show love and care for myself, my parts, or other people.

He is always reminding me and telling me how to show love and understanding to my Littles. He is always happy when I say I did it on my own although that is rare. I do not look for love and caring from others, my brain was trained at birth to not look for or expect that. But I guess my T is hoping that I can eventually start loving myself and to accept love and caring from others once I learn to extend it to my Littles as I do to animals.