I feel really lonely and isolated at the moment - like nobody can understand just how **** things really are.

Briefly here’s what’s going on for me:
1. In a heterosexual relationship, started to question my sexuality about three years ago, came to the conclusion that I’m gay and I’ve been feeling trapped and suffocated ever since.
2. My relationship is also emotionally abusive and I’ve been taking steps to leave over the last six months.
3. My brother died very recently due to an accident. It was completely unexpected.

I met up with some friends yesterday. They are all at such happy places in their lives - first houses, new baby, pregnant, wedding planning, etc. - and I know everyone has their own problems, but I’m not sure that they can comprehend just how horrible things are right now, which isn’t a criticism. And I know people go through worse, but I just feel very alone.