Ok, so I "know" I'm bipolar....ok....but what the heck. I still can't wrap my brain around the fact that I don't have full control over my emotions. I grew up having to explain my actions/reactions and making stuff up so I didn't get into trouble.
Logically, there has to be a reason for my feelings, right? For me there is not always a concrete reason and growing up people in the group homes and foster homes wouldn't believe me when I said that I didn't know what was wrong.I find myself making excuses for feeling angry or upset about something. Too many people just don't understand that sometimes feelings just happen with me.
It doesn't make me a bad person, but I can understand how my moods effect other people and the way they perceive me.

How do you deal with others and your own bipolar issues? Do you tend to make up excuses for your moods, actions or reactions?

I just want to know that I am not alone. It can be so hard sometimes.

BJ