I think I might have tipped into paranoia. But there is some part of me that kind of doesn't want to do anything about it because I feel like, on some level, all I can really hope for is to be used by people and perhaps, I can use them a little bit, but due to my tendency of not asking for what I want... that won't happen.

So what do I do now?
1. Throw a party (small gathering at my house).
2. Refriend all those people on facebook I have gotten rid of?
3. make it my business to go see and talk to people 1x per day?
4. Go to court events and meetings that maybe I don't have to?