Hello live2019: Thank you for bringing your concern here to PC. I see this is your first post. So... welcome to Psych Central.

You know... I used to know a guy who was fond of saying: "If you want to know which way the bullet's going, look down the barrel of the gun." If you re-read what you've written here, you'll see what your relationship with this gentleman might be like were it to be re-kindled. (I know you're resigned to the fact that's not going to occur. But stranger things have happened.) And, of course, as has already been mentioned by a previous member, it's possible this isn't really about depression at all but simply a handy rationale for ending the relationship. There's no way to know for sure.

Having written that, my personal perspective would be one final contact, just to let your friend know you're there for him should he wish, wouldn't be out of line. You might even consider sending a small bouquet of flowers with a brief note to that effect if you wanted to (assuming he's the kind of guy who could appreciate such a gesture of course.) Then just wait & see what happens if anything. If nothing does, then it's clearly over. But you do have to think seriously about how you would feel, & what you might anticipate, should he respond. (He did tell you he did not want to not be in contact.) You could be reaching out toward a relationship you'll later regret.

Anyway... these are my thoughts with regard to your post. I hope you find PC to be of benefit.