I sent T an email letting him know what I was struggling with but put in the subject line to wait until he was in the office to read it. Well, he just replied to it. He didn’t admit to reading or not reading it but he responded that he will see me tomorrow with the clapping hands and a big smile emoji. I hope he didn’t read it at home... anything that I would put in a trigger warning on here I ask that he be in the office to read, not at home. I am sure he has caught the pattern and knows what he is getting into but I feel bad.
I would be better had he not used the emojis, they make it harder for me to interpret... I can see where they could be acknowledging my missing him and looking forward to tomorrow... but they could also be about the insight/awareness I shared in the email.

I want a hug from T... like now, before I have to see him tomorrow.... but I guess I would have to look at him to hug him.

As far as trust... T has and continues to go above and beyond to earn my trust and does not expect it to be given easily.